When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
Siren's Song
Wednesday, April 02, 2003
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life,I'd always thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of wordly things that I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting, and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last your'e free.
So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
for everytime you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.
Author Unknown
2:16 PM
Not so long ago, there was a time almost everyone got attached one after another. That was the mass hitching season?
It's kinda creepy that five of my friends told me they've broken up, or considering a break-up, with their other halves, all within one week of one another. Are we experiencing a mass ditching period?
No Need To Argue
There's no need to argue anymore.
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore.
And the thing that makes me mad,
Is the one thing that I had,
I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.
And I remember all the things we once shared,
Watching T.V. movies on the living room armchair.
But they say it will work out fine.
Was it all a waste of time.
'Cause I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.
Will I forget in time, ah,
You said I was on your mind?
There's no need to argue,
No need to argue anymore.
There's no need to argue anymore.
Getting drunk on my own brain chemicals is, no doubt, the most difficult addiction to get a handle on. I began early in childhood living a world of delusion and make believe Every time there was chaos or disruption in the family, the make-believe place was the only refuge I can seek. It's probably a skill that kept me sane in the midst of insanity. Can I still tell the difference between what's make believe and what's real?
I don't know. The scary thing is, I don't want to know.
Where is Argentrock Isle? Why am I so intrigued by this make-believe place in an ancient version of the RPG Ultima VIII? It's not even home ground - Argentrock Isle is ruled by the element air, but I'm born of the element fire.
When thoughts of escape from reality fly, like they are right now, it means a) I'm majorly stressed, or b) I'm mega depressed. I have to be. Why else would I be scouring the WWW for songs written for angry teens, or recall the Wiccan Creed all of a sudden?
Bide The Wiccan Law Ye Must,
In Perfect Love, In Perfect Trust.
Eight Words The Wiccan Rede Fulfill:
An Ye Harm None, Do As Ye Will.
And Ever Mind The Rule Of Three:
What Ye Send Out, Comes Back To Thee.
Follow This With Mind And Heart,
And Merry Ye Meet, And Merry Ye Part.
I once watched a news clip about literacy and children in Canada. The newsreporter asked this little girl what kind of stories she prefered, and she replied that she liked sad ones. When asked why, she answered because they made her cry.
I have always liked love songs, and especially the sad ones. In some ways they were the only ones that ever made sense to me. A great song is like a good story. At first it pulls you in, as you focus your attention. Then there is always an increase in dramatic tension - be it in tempo, modularity or volume - before the final resolution. You find yourself crying for no reason. You find yourself pondering about death and the void. You start to think too much. Here, have a listen, maybe you'll feel the same way - let the song kill you slowly.
"Dying In The Sun"
Do you remember
The things we used to say?
I feel so nervous
When I think of yesterday
How could I let things
Get to me so bad?
How did I let things get to me?
Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying [x2]
Will you hold on to me
I am feeling frail
Will you hold on to me
We will never fail
I wanted to be so perfect you see
I wanted to be so perfect
Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying [x2]
Upside down
Bouncing Off the ceiling
Inside out
Stranger to this feeling
Got no clue what I should do
But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to you
I have this problem. I love having crushes, yet I can't get too close to a guy. But my problem is that when things start to get serious, I back off. I leave them hanging, and the only thing this does is hurt them, and myself. I can be friends with a guy, and tell them everything, but when a relationship come into the picture, its like I am shy and just can't open up at all. People say I'm a bitch for leading them on. But can I help it?
